Happy Mechanical Bird

I need help. I’ve lost all motivation.

I’m a graphic designer. I’m tired of my work. I recently left a management position at fortune 500 company in Los Angeles (well “left” is a little ambiguous — I got laid off) and moved to Colorado to be with my long distance boyfriend. I do freelance graphic design work from home now. I have Crohn’s disease, an autoimmune disease affecting the digestive system. The altitude here is killing me.

I treat my dis-ease entirely with a Paleo or Specific Carbohydrate Diet, whatever you wanna call it. I’m learning to cook. I’m learning to be a parent to my boyfriend’s two adorable children. I’m learning to take care of a family.

I’m the most content I’ve ever been… and at the same time I’m paralyzed. I spend the entire day fighting with myself about whether I’ll get up from my desk and go to the gym… about whether I’ll get up from my desk and go start dinner… whether I’ll get up and go to the grocery store, do the laundry, do anything.

So I’m starting this blog to try to chronicle the steps I’m taking towards finding the light. I’m starting this blog because I need your support. If you’re reading this, you might be the only one. But if I write about my life… for you, maybe that’s enough…

Thank you for reading.